Hey guys, haven't posted in A WHILE!

Height: 5ft 3"
CW:136 lbs
GW: 125 lbs by October 1st   ....any one with similar stats, what are your goals for the 1st of oct?

It seems a lot in know, but i've done it before, and i know i can do it again. So the reason why i haven't posted in a while is because i haven't been obsessing over food till this week.... this obsession is seriously killing me...i hate it...i want it to go away, but i don't know how i can do it, i really don't. Binges are not healthy and not flattering at all :( I hate my body, I don't know what to do :( ...you guys really help me over come these retarded binges...when i read the posts you guys put up, i can think to my self "i'm not alone, there are other girls out there who are suffering from an eating disorder just like me," Sometimes i wonder what my life would be like if that one thought which started this whole eating disorder never occurred...for me to never hav had it in the first place. Would i now be a normal person, an obese one, a happy one? I hate my obsession, i hate it...that's all i can say. I need get down to 113...its a must, i want to do it caus i know if i reach it, i won't obsess, but maintain. I need to do it, i need to.

October 24 - GW: 115.0 lbs


 

So...I haven't posted in a while...and I am now 140.0lbs...pathetic!!! Formal is in 40 days (5 weeks) FUUUUCCCCKKKK!!! I'm going to start dieting tomorrow...wish me luck?

CW (3/22/08): 140.0 lbs
GW (5/2/08): 113.0 lbs

Tomorrow's Meal Plan:

Breakfast: Cup of tea (with sugar) = 2 calories
Lunch: Bottle of sweet tea (with sugar) = 2 calories
Dinner: Bottle of sweet tea (with sugar) + alcohol = 2 calories + ??

Today was actually pretty good! I went to the gym and didn't binge afterwards! There is still alot of time before the day ends so I'll have to be carefull not to binge. I hope everone else is having a good day =)